Last week was SO packed! Working non-stop and once the project ended, i headed to KL-Penang straight away with Zunzun. then THE NEXT DAY, my uni friends came to pay Johor a visit so i became their tour guide. Basically it's just a food tour coz i just stuffed their stomachs with all the food i could think of LOL.
i.am.so.goddamn.tired and fat now!!!! *slump into the couch* i seriously need a break (and diet wtf) before my Bangkok trip next week. How to wear bikini liddis?!!! Diet mode is fucking ON.
Also, i need to record every thought that is
jumbling up in my head for i have so much things to express for being 21 officially. you know lah old people tend to nag and moan more often wtf. *roll down the script*
I didn't throw a fancy nancy birthday party though, for i, pathetic enough, do not really have a lot of friends to invite anyway. The good thing is, i did celebrate my birthday with family, close friends and bf. *smile sheepishly* That's enough, i think. Good enough for me to weep through the night, thanking them for loving me. =') Nevertheless i still retain this fantasy of having a fabulous birthday bash one day, where i will put on a dazzling tiara, catered with lovely cupcakes, confections and ice cream, surrounded by people i cherish, drown in wishes and blessings. OMG i sound so greedy wtf. But i'd really love to organize one by myself in the future. it can also be a pure thanksgiving party. =D
i wanna say Thank You to so many people. Maybe it's the cookies that you offered me in the class, or the
remarks you said which has kept me holding on when I was at the brink to collapse.
To Mum & Dad, I know how heartbreaking it is to
send your daughter off to somewhere 555 kilometers away. It has been hard for you when i was informed to go Terengganu to further my studies, but thanks for supporting me and my decision, instead of pulling me back. Thanks for knowing that your daughter is as strong as she is, that she is no longer frail and vulnerable as she was, and that she is able to make thru' the coming four years without air-con and water heater wtf. I'm glad to have you both be my parents. We might not be extra wealthy like other families, but you always, ALWAYS do what you can to make me happy until sometimes i blame you secretly for pampering me so much. Like the day my dad drove 16 hours non-stop all the way from Johor to Terengganu to fetch me; my mom who is so petite, carried the luggage which probably heavier than herself from 5th floor of my hostel. What have i done to deserve all these? This is one of the reason that shun me from the idea of having my own children: i can never be devoted like them. They fight tooth and nail, give me the best, raise me up, love me from the inside out. Thank you the most magnificent God, whoever You are, for making me their daughter. it's the best gift i could ever asked for.
To Gorgor, I remember last
year my birthday, you gave me cash as my gift. Then I, who was the ungrateful kid
that time, complaint that I wanted a stuff toy instead. And you bought it the
next day to me. wtf how to find a brother like this?!! Thanks for taking care of us so well.
To Sister, I thank for your patience. i wish i could love you more and be patient to you as well. Thanks for always being there to listen my craps, and never be tired of it. Most importantly, you believe in every word of mine. You're the only one i could unashamedly share my ugliest thoughts and wildest dream with.
To Ah Di (lil bro), I’ve seen you growing mature over
the years. Thank you for no longer being our constant worry, or better, making us proud in so many times.
To Dodo, we could never enjoy such secure life without you guarding our house for more than 7 years. Thank you for bringing the utmost joy to our family, and actually be part of it.
To my law girls, i'm really glad to meet you, really. You guys contribute a large part of the reasons for me not retreating from the game (by game i mean staying in the crappy place and taking the risk of graduating without getting accreditation). The god is fair, He sent me to this piece of shitland, he also gave me a bunch of good friends.
To XuanYing, you're so awesome. Thank you for understanding me so well within this ten months. i know my following years in university are going to be fabulous, because you introduced the type of life that i desire. Thank you for being so funny. Thank you for being my Fatimah hahhahah!!! You're so kind, so mean, so everything.
To PeiShin, i thank your hyperactivity LOL. But your passion is so contagious that people around you can hardly slack for a second. i'm like "dude, aren't you tired?". You're always lively, 24/7 smiling with your wide shining eyes. The world needs more kind of people like you to be a better place.
To Joyce, you're always the calm and sensible one. Although sometimes you can't stand us being ridiculous, but you still care, you still love. Thank you for never abandoning us, who are so reckless and always neglected the fragile hearts. You're the real Mother Teresa.
To Vera, let's count for how many years we have known each other. Whenever i seek for advise (on any matters), i know you're the one who can provide the answer that i want to hear. Thank you for being so understanding most of the time.
To Jess, thanks for always making surprises hahaha! You're such a friend that when we're in help, you always help.
To Simwan, you might look cool as you are, but most often you're just warm-blooded as we are. Thank you for being rational and smart all the time that i'm always motivated to be like you.
To Zunzun, it seems that the power of distance is invincible. I can sense the growing differences and the changes between us since we're apart. I reminisce for we always having unanimous thoughts, or telepathy, in the past (we still do, but rarely), but i never stopped feeling grateful for this relationship we've earned. Thank you for being my sunshine and always bring the positive rays to my life. There are times when i'm about to lose myself and trail away, you keep me on the right track, even you don't realize it. Thank you for accepting me as who i am because nobody see my weaknesses and flaws more than you do (ok soon there will be another one lol =X). i'm really thankful to have you as my bestie, now and always will be. Thank you for being one whom i can always rely on.
To Dodo, we could never enjoy such secure life without you guarding our house for more than 7 years. Thank you for bringing the utmost joy to our family, and actually be part of it.
To my law girls, i'm really glad to meet you, really. You guys contribute a large part of the reasons for me not retreating from the game (by game i mean staying in the crappy place and taking the risk of graduating without getting accreditation). The god is fair, He sent me to this piece of shitland, he also gave me a bunch of good friends.
To XuanYing, you're so awesome. Thank you for understanding me so well within this ten months. i know my following years in university are going to be fabulous, because you introduced the type of life that i desire. Thank you for being so funny. Thank you for being my Fatimah hahhahah!!! You're so kind, so mean, so everything.
To PeiShin, i thank your hyperactivity LOL. But your passion is so contagious that people around you can hardly slack for a second. i'm like "dude, aren't you tired?". You're always lively, 24/7 smiling with your wide shining eyes. The world needs more kind of people like you to be a better place.
To Joyce, you're always the calm and sensible one. Although sometimes you can't stand us being ridiculous, but you still care, you still love. Thank you for never abandoning us, who are so reckless and always neglected the fragile hearts. You're the real Mother Teresa.
To Vera, let's count for how many years we have known each other. Whenever i seek for advise (on any matters), i know you're the one who can provide the answer that i want to hear. Thank you for being so understanding most of the time.
To Jess, thanks for always making surprises hahaha! You're such a friend that when we're in help, you always help.
To Simwan, you might look cool as you are, but most often you're just warm-blooded as we are. Thank you for being rational and smart all the time that i'm always motivated to be like you.
To Zunzun, it seems that the power of distance is invincible. I can sense the growing differences and the changes between us since we're apart. I reminisce for we always having unanimous thoughts, or telepathy, in the past (we still do, but rarely), but i never stopped feeling grateful for this relationship we've earned. Thank you for being my sunshine and always bring the positive rays to my life. There are times when i'm about to lose myself and trail away, you keep me on the right track, even you don't realize it. Thank you for accepting me as who i am because nobody see my weaknesses and flaws more than you do (ok soon there will be another one lol =X). i'm really thankful to have you as my bestie, now and always will be. Thank you for being one whom i can always rely on.
To KG, thank you for loving me so much. I never expected this kind of happiness from you, consider how much I disliked/hated you before. And i never knew i can be this clingy too.*blush* My life had been all good for the last 20 years without your interruption, but i guess you just make it better. Just like the combi of milo and soda crackers (milo alone is already a perfection, dipping with soda crackers is crème de la crème!!! OMG i'm craving for it now wtf. Too tempting!). i'm grateful there is another person to take in my incessant nonsenses and to endure my stubbornness. Thanks for handling me like a princess/time-bomb, this is bad though coz i'm already a spoilt kid wtf. Sometimes the amount of love and affection you give me simply creeps me out, for fear that i couldn't love you back in the right proportion. But thank you, i'm learning how to be a better person every single day.
And to many many people out there who have been so important to my life, THANK YOU.
Being 21 years old is actually nothing to brag about, i'm just grateful (SO GRATEFUL!) to meet all kinds of good people along the way. That's amazing, isn't it? Guess i really have done a lot of charity in my past life lolol.
Being 21 years old is actually nothing to brag about, i'm just grateful (SO GRATEFUL!) to meet all kinds of good people along the way. That's amazing, isn't it? Guess i really have done a lot of charity in my past life lolol.
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